His Promise

"Pingkun, maaf ya hari ini. Ada project mendadak. Sorry again, we arrange another time ya. Btw, dapet nomor pingkun dari Noval".

When is that another time? I already posted our photos and I will tell the story behind it. How it happened. I will. But, one precious thing I learn from him. I can keep his words, his promise. Something that maybe is so rare and hard to find. 

Then the story, begin ....

After 7 december, we starting texting each other like everyday. We share every little things we did and at the end of the day, we make a call to tell every story and every feeling.

"We should meet, soon. asap. Lets arrange the right time, Pingkun" 

We decided to meet at 13 december, 5 pm, Mantos. 

I went to Mantos with a friend of mine (re: Beybs). I always ask someone to accompany me when im going to have my first date. If Yudi surprise and look "bete" it means he doesnt accept the little thing I did. 

But,

He is very welcome when he saw Beybs at the first time. He said hallo and introduced him self. Then, he said "The movie will start about a hour from now. Lets take a dinner and Beybs should join us".

We took our dinner and he did something that I wouldnt never forget. We watch a movie "Tangled" and we went to Photobox. He said that was his first time photobox-ing (i dont know) but I really had fun that day.

One thing I learn from him, he always keep his words. Like he said, people will trust you when you can keep your words. 

So, thank you for giving me a life lesson. 

Failed Blind Date

I meet someone. I dont like him at the first time I saw him. I embarrassed my self in front of him at the very first time we met. I can clearly remember that day, 1 December 2013. I was on my freshman year at high school. They said that;

"High school lover is the love you wouldnt forget for the rest of your life, the person may not last but the memories are"

 I dont know about it yet, nor it is right or not. But, I never thought that my high school lover will come this fast. Man, I just graduate and I've been in high school not a half year yet. You never know what will come tomorrow dont you?
He set up a blind date, so oldie, he sent a little message for me thru my dancer-mate "Angie". 

"Your friend is cute. Tell her, 7 December, 3pm. Mantos. Meet me there!"

Yes, he is a dancer. 5 years older than me.  College boy. Learn about Politics. Mama's boy. Funny. Eye-catching. 
Did I come? Yes, I did. After my violin private class, I went to Mantos. On time. I saw him with his friends running thru main corridor at the mall. Laughing. I thought they were having fun. Nope. They tried to run from the mall security. They were making a dance video at the mall without the mall staff knowing.

Then,
Someone running to me. Him? No. My senior, let us call kak Noval. He said;

"He really sorry, Ping. He cant come today. There's urgent stuff to do, so he suddenly go now. I gave him your number, if its alright." 

Its alright.  

He was playing with me. I thought. 
Then, maybe I should never trust that kind of blind date anymore. At least, I know how it feels. 

New Begging yet to Come

I was a little girl that finally turns out to a high school girl. Nothing much change in me. Still small, pretty, cute like an elementary kiddo, short and still aint like to talk with strangers. 

Some part of me are very happy because my classmate mostly my friends at elementary school and junior high school. We were like "please dont introduce yourself" but its just for formality. Just a little from my friends that came by different city  (outside Manado). I liked to make friends. I have a lot of friends but none of them I called "close-friend". Im a little bit difficult to get closer with people. The problem is not on them but its on me. Im a kind a person that hard to handle and hard to get. I can be a quite person but a minute later I can be so annoying. Trust me, its ease to hate me rather than love me. I act weird in front of people. Somehow, I can laugh with them but at the same time I can give them a straight face. Sometimes I think Im bipolar, but thank You my Lord Jesus, I am not. 

Im difficult to get closer with a boy. It is because if I like you, I wouldnt be the same. I mean, maybe you see me laughing but with the one I love, I can be so stiff and barely breath if you around. I have no lover till' now. Its not because there's none I interest to nor no one liked me. It is because its hard for me to fall in love but once I fall in love with you. I will love you for a long time. Im a kind of person who taking seriously about relationship. Everytime I in a relationship, I want to make it last. Its exhausted to get to know each other well over and over again. So, if I love you beware. Maybe you are in danger now.