The Truth Hurts

Someone just told me he love me today. Its bad I cant say I love him too. He is kind, very kind. Everytime I need someone, he is also the one I can count on. 

BUT

You can help with who you falling in love with, right?
Today, we went to watch movie and as I promise him, I will answer him directly. I didnt expect that he would ask me to watch movie. So, we were on the theater and when I start talking, he was like "this movie is really cool, the plot, the story". 
Then, im braving my self to directly talk to him. I said "Youre really kind to me, I maybe would love you so much but not this time. Im sorry, I cant."
He was surprised, I thought he think that when I say I will answer him directly, it means I will say "Yes, I love you too."

He added "We can make a new start. Maybe you cant love me for awhile but as the time goes by, you can love me like the way I do", then I replied "I aint that type of girl, I cant love someone, like truly love him, if we start relationship, i have to truly love him at the beginning."
5 minutes later, he said that he have an appointment with someone so he should go. I know he was upset and disappointed. 

I am really sorry for broke his heart and never meant it but it is better to say the truth even it hurts you so bad. 

He texted me, "I know you in love with someone else and I know him."

But after I told him the truth, we still be friends even there are something missing. 

His Promise

"Pingkun, maaf ya hari ini. Ada project mendadak. Sorry again, we arrange another time ya. Btw, dapet nomor pingkun dari Noval".

When is that another time? I already posted our photos and I will tell the story behind it. How it happened. I will. But, one precious thing I learn from him. I can keep his words, his promise. Something that maybe is so rare and hard to find. 

Then the story, begin ....

After 7 december, we starting texting each other like everyday. We share every little things we did and at the end of the day, we make a call to tell every story and every feeling.

"We should meet, soon. asap. Lets arrange the right time, Pingkun" 

We decided to meet at 13 december, 5 pm, Mantos. 

I went to Mantos with a friend of mine (re: Beybs). I always ask someone to accompany me when im going to have my first date. If Yudi surprise and look "bete" it means he doesnt accept the little thing I did. 

But,

He is very welcome when he saw Beybs at the first time. He said hallo and introduced him self. Then, he said "The movie will start about a hour from now. Lets take a dinner and Beybs should join us".

We took our dinner and he did something that I wouldnt never forget. We watch a movie "Tangled" and we went to Photobox. He said that was his first time photobox-ing (i dont know) but I really had fun that day.

One thing I learn from him, he always keep his words. Like he said, people will trust you when you can keep your words. 

So, thank you for giving me a life lesson. 

Failed Blind Date

I meet someone. I dont like him at the first time I saw him. I embarrassed my self in front of him at the very first time we met. I can clearly remember that day, 1 December 2013. I was on my freshman year at high school. They said that;

"High school lover is the love you wouldnt forget for the rest of your life, the person may not last but the memories are"

 I dont know about it yet, nor it is right or not. But, I never thought that my high school lover will come this fast. Man, I just graduate and I've been in high school not a half year yet. You never know what will come tomorrow dont you?
He set up a blind date, so oldie, he sent a little message for me thru my dancer-mate "Angie". 

"Your friend is cute. Tell her, 7 December, 3pm. Mantos. Meet me there!"

Yes, he is a dancer. 5 years older than me.  College boy. Learn about Politics. Mama's boy. Funny. Eye-catching. 
Did I come? Yes, I did. After my violin private class, I went to Mantos. On time. I saw him with his friends running thru main corridor at the mall. Laughing. I thought they were having fun. Nope. They tried to run from the mall security. They were making a dance video at the mall without the mall staff knowing.

Then,
Someone running to me. Him? No. My senior, let us call kak Noval. He said;

"He really sorry, Ping. He cant come today. There's urgent stuff to do, so he suddenly go now. I gave him your number, if its alright." 

Its alright.  

He was playing with me. I thought. 
Then, maybe I should never trust that kind of blind date anymore. At least, I know how it feels.